The Loss of Your Heart Dog
For the past few years I’ve been reading a lot about Pet Loss. Because of our rescue and many referrals from the local veterinarians I get a lot of referrals when folks loose their dogs because they know that I will listen.
Why does the loss of our pets have such a big impact on us? I believe its because this is the one we tell our secrets. The dogs we confide in go to their grave knowing our deepest darkest secrets and they still love us. They never get angry. You never have to worry about what they will think of you. They greet us happily when we come from work. They watch over us at night when we sleep.
What is a Heart Dog? I think a heart dog is that one dog you loved more than every other dog. Some of us are blessed to have more than one during our life time. Some people have only one. This is the dog that can read of our minds. The dogs that inspire us. When these dogs die our hearts break into a thousand little pieces and we think that we will never heal.
I think the good news is this. We will always have our Heart Dog in our hearts. Hopefully one day we can make room for another.
This page is dedicated to Our Heart Dogs.
The Loss of a Heart-Dog
I stood by your
bed last night,
I came to have a peep
I could see that you were crying,
you found it hard to sleep
I whined to you
softly as
you brushed away a tear,
"it's me, I haven't left,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here"
I was close to
you at breakfast,
I watched you pour the tea
You were thinking of the many times,
your hands reached down to me
I was with you at
the shops today,
your arms were getting sore
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish you could do more
I was with you at
my grave today,
you tend it with such care
I want to reassure you,
that I'm not lying there
I walked with you
towards the house,
as you fumbled for your key
I gently put my paw on you,
I smiled and said "it's me"
You look so very
tired,
and sank into a chair
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there
It's possible for
me,
to be so near you everyday
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away"
You sat there
very quietly,
then smiled, I think you knew
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you
The day is over,
I smile and watch you yawning
And say "goodnight, God bless,
I'll see you in the morning"
And when the time
is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand, side by side
I have so many
things to show you,
there is so much for you to see
Be patient, live your journey out,
then come home to be with me.
- Author Unknown
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from:
Rebecca J. Del Medico
My Golden Boy
Everyone has read the book about Marley the bad dog. But I want to tell you about Elliott. The kindest, most loving gentleman of a dog there ever was. His soul shone through every day of his life. He wanted to love and please you, comfort and console you. Every time he looked at you the love in his eyes shone as bright as the stars.
Everyone called him a mama’s boy because from the day I brought him home, he was never to far from me. As a puppy he attended Board Meetings at publicly traded corporations, got bored (no pun intended), and curled up under the Board Room table.
He was such a good puppy and only tore up paper. Imagine my surprise when I came home to find my living room ankle deep in paper. He had torn up the dictionary from A to Z.
We bought him a kiddie’s pool when we brought him home and he had the best time jumping in and out and playing in the water. His favorite time was when I tested the sprinklers and he would run from one to the other jumping and biting and the water. He would sit on them and than run like crazy.
He would greet everyone with a cheery hello, as only Golden’s can do and insist on walking people to their cars when they left.
Once when we went on vacation and I had to board him, I decided to pay the extra and have him trained, although he was already trained. I figured that that way someone would be paying attention to him everyday. When we went to pick him up, the trainer said he was a really smart dog. First Lassie, then Rin Tin Tin and then Elliott. I said well than he must have been easy to work with. The trainer said yes and no. He put Elliott in the training area (behind the two way mirror) and told him down. Elliott immediately laid down. The trainer put a biscuit in the middle of the room, left and came out to watch with us. You could actually see Elliott thinking. Still in the down position he crept across the room and ate the biscuit. The trainer said “See, I didn’t tell him to stay so he out thought me”.
Elliott talked to his Grandfather on the phone and they carried on a pretty intense conversation. After his Grandfather died he refused to talk on the phone. He was like he knew that Grandpa was gone.
Elliott loved to play hide and seek. You would take a little canvas bag and put a treat in it. You had to take Elliott out of the room before you hid it because it would cheat. Once you hid it you would tell him to fine it. He actually would go to a different place when you told him he was cold and seek it aggressively when you told him it was hot.
Every day it was his job to bring in the paper. He took that job seriously. One day while he was working his friend CJ came running over. Elliott would have nothing to do with him. Elliott had this look in his eye and attitude, “Don’t bother me when I’m working.
When my father died, I would get up in the middle of the night crying. Elliott would come with me and put his head in my lap and console me. Walk the floor with me and snuggle me. He would spoon like a person.
My sister Val
taught him to swim in the ocean for a potato chip. He was a food whore. He
taught himself to rescue people in the pool by jumping in, swimming to them,
turning around, and letting them grab his tail pull them to the steps. The
only problem was if there was food out. If you called for help, he would look
at the food, look at you, look at the food, than he would jump in to save
you. He loved to swim but what he really loved was to climb up on a raft and
have you push him around the pool. We call it playing “King of the
Elliott loved to dress up for Halloween. When the kid would come and open their bags for a treat Elliott would stick his head in to see if there was anything in the bag that he wanted. Then he would carry his little bag door to door and get dog treats from the neighbors.
When we
brought Ginger home, he was 6 years old and use to being an only child. He
would have nothing to do with her. She of course loved him and only wanted to
be close to him. If by chance and much creeping and sneaking, she managed to
achieve it. She would lie down next to him and than start giving him little
love bite. With a huff, he would get up and leave. He would squeeze himself
through an opening between the chair and door just so he wouldn’t have to walk
next to her. Than my father died suddenly, and we had to leave them both to
the care of friends, Dean would come over at noon to let them out, and
Everyone thought Ginger (the pushy woman) was the dominant dog, but it was Elliott that was the king of the household. He was so easy going that he let Ginger do her own thing, but than he would lay down the law, with a look and a special WOO WOO he would let her know that enough was enough. She would immediately go lie down and tuck her nose between her paws.
They were like little bookends, lying back to back in the same position. Ginger would mimic Elliott. If he had his paws crossed, she would cross hers. If his head was between his paws, she would have hers there.
He was never
mean, always happy and kind and thoughtful. He was wagging his tail right to
the end and the love in his eyes was still there even when I went in to say
goodbye, he knew me and knew my touch and my love for him. Before he went
into surgery, I told him that if he didn’t make it to look for his Grandpa at
the
My Golden Boy is gone now and a big piece of my heart went with him. That place is empty now, and it seems as if the light of joy has now grown a little dimmer and the world is not quite the same.
June 24th 2008
A long time ago I had a foster dog named Jake. He was totally Alpha and had to go to the absolute right home. A nice kid named Brett came along and it seemed like the best situation for Jake. Brett had never had his own dog and he was trying to make all the right decisions. He took in Jake. I'll never forget that Jake ate an entire package of hotdogs in about 4 seconds (they may have even frozen) and left me the package. Jake had a wonderful life with Brett and for that I will always be grateful.

Jakes
from Brett
Dear Cyndi,
As I write this, I’m crying
like I’ve never cried my whole life. I lost my heart. My white faced boy
passed away 2 weeks ago, he was 16 years old. I want to thank you for
introducing me to Jake that July day, 8 years ago. I had no idea I would love
him with every ounce of my soul and how much he would mean to me. He touched
so many lives, but I’ll never forget how much he touched mine. I miss him so
much it hurts.
I try so hard to remember
the good times, playing hockey with the tennis ball (his favorite, he was such
a persistent ball stealer). Even when he was 15 or 16, he was still so into
it. Slower to react and move, but still so much competitive drive to get the
ball. Everybody who knew him would notice his spirit even in his last years,
it was as if he would live until 20. People would love to tease him and get
him to bark because he had the cutest, femine sounding bark. It was like a
hi-pitched bark/squeek. It was so funny.
The last year of his life,
he was becoming extremely arthritic. And in November 2007, he had a cancerous
tumor removed from his left hind hip area. Everything went smooth, no post
treatment needed, and he was back up and playing within a week or so. The
last 2 months of his life were rough - he got sick, was having lots of
diarrhea, losing weight, and not able to get up or walk on his own. Still
eating and drinking though. The last 2 days of his life he couldn’t get
comfortable even laying down on his bed, and wasn’t getting up at all. I knew
it was close to the end, and struggled a lot with putting him down. The
mental anguish was almost unbearable – I was breaking down. On June 10th
I woke up and saw his body on his bed, still waiting to see any breath or
movement. And then the tears began to flow. That was the day my heart broke
into a million pieces.
I might adopt another dog
some day, but there will never be another Jake. This one is a stinger, like
I’m shot right through the heart.
Thank you Cyndi for giving
me Jake and his 8 years of companionship, friendship, and love that I will
never forget.
Your friend with an empty
heart,
Brett
Kind of reminds me of Enzo from "The art of racing in the rain" by garth stein
so Jake
Somewhere a Zebra is Dancing.

Midi: Puff the Magic Dragon
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